words of wisdom from Edmund Sultan

i was expecting a long afternoon of lecture today so i prepared my self,i read a lot last night, i had early lunch and i bought tons of bottled water and candies...but to my disappointment,no lecture (technically there is a lecture,but not formal lecture)...we had the Owner of the review center as our lecturer, Mr. Edmund Sultan...it was more of an orientation rather than lecture...and i was surprised, turned out to be the best lecture i've ever heard in my life...
he talked about the IQ program for the whole three motnhs period, policies of the review center, talked about his life...and most of all, life during the boads and how we're going to pass it...
his first question struck me the most...
"WHY ARE YOU HERE?"
at first i thought t'was just a retorical question that need not to be answered, till he points at me and asked me ...
"KAW MA'AM, WHY ARE YOU HERE?"
i was shocked a bit, but i told him..."to pass the boards sir!"
he said..."NOT BAD!"
after calling a few other people, he then realized that all of us inthat room have one common goal...
TO PASS THE BOARDS AND GET OUR LISCENCE
then he said...
"DON'T YOU THINK IT'S BETTER IF YOUR GOAL IS NOT JUST TO PASS THE BOARDS?BUT TO TOP THE BOARDS?"
defening silence was felt in the room...it struck me...i know i want to pass the boards (of course)...but why?seriously...am just doing this for my parents,that maybe when i finally pass the boards they would get off my business na...
i just learned t'was wrong, coz if i'll continue with that thinking, then i will fail...
i have to do this for my self...COZ I OWE IT TO MYSELF
i then learned the most amazing definition of the word descipline...

DISCIPLINE - is doing something that you dont want to do to achieve something that you want to do
confussed?read again...word per word...then think coz that i was confussed too when i saw that definition...
he's right...my goal should ot only be to pass the boards, but to top it...coz if i fail on one task, then i will land on number 2...but if my goal is just to pass...if i fail on one task, i will land on failed immediately...

i was so inspired after his lecture that amm scared...maybe this inspiration is just an emotion that will eventually fleet
i dont want that to happen...i want to create a hunger within me that will yearn so bad for a PTRP title
that can be my motivation for the whole three months...thats hunger will give me "drive" so endure those sleepless nights and to yearn for more
i've never been thise motivated before and i never expected myself to be this excited about this review
i need to have the purpose...coz so far...am just Michelle