the doctor is in

everybody knows am a couch potato,but tuesday night is not really my tv night...till CSI:NY started,i began spending more time in front of TV on tuesday,but most of the time i'd rather catch it on sundays...CSI sunday supreme
but last tuesday my attention was caught by this new TV show in AXN...Dr. House
at first parang boring sya so i really didnt pay attention,pero i kept on tuning in...till nakuha na nya talaga attention ko...it's hillarious!!!grabe,i was laughing my head out talaga!!!the humor?man,it's unique...of course relate na relate talaga ako
at and characters...amazingly portrayed...
try watching it...might find it borng at first coz they use lots of medical terms,but focus on Dr. House, his personality,beliefs,attitude,way he deal with his patients and the life of his patients...then you'll get the heart of it...hehehe

a walk to remember

saturday night we went to the wake of my greatgrand mother (father side)
its been 17 years since the last time i saw her house (i usually visit my great grandma at my lola's house)... am expecting the usual routine in the family, you know mano sa lahat ng matatandang makikita mo kasi lahat sila kamag-anak mo. but when we arrived that night,i was petrified when i saw my whole clan. Man i came from a huge family!!! and am not just talking about huge... its humungous!!! if i didnt knew about that wake, i would thought that there's a party or something...i saw this really big tent that was setup, more than 20 something big tables and when we arrived, we were greeted by people whom i dont even know...
another thing that surprised me was the meal... its as if am in a banquet!!! every ten minutes theres this girl who pass this try that contain anything, as in any food that you can think of (biscuits,juice,nuts,sweets,chips..even meal...i swear i was shocked when i saw a bowl of rice topped menudo there)... i feel so tired that night just looking and observing them,not to mention that i have to move from one table to another saying hi to people i just met (na cousins,aunts,lola,ninang,kapitbahay,kababata,etc ko pala)... grabe!!!andami talaga!!!
then the next morning libing na ng lola ko... i never actually attended any funeral in the province before, actually, i can remember any funeral i attended of someone close to me...we never had dead close relative before,so technically this is my first time,sa province pa...and na trauma yata ako... i didnt know na they do it the traditional way pala there in zambales...traditional as in you have to walk at the back of the funeral car from the house to the church to the cemetery... under the heat of 7am sun...ok lang sana kung house to church was like 1km away, then church to cemetery is 500 meter...man!!! house to church was 7km!!! tumataginting na 7km sya!!! and thats only the church...church to cemetery is another 2km...and we have to walk!!!hear me out!!!WALK!!!
they still do that pala noh...kasi everytime nakakakita ako ng funeral here in subic,usually funeral car,then tons of cars and jeeps na kasunod...pero since province sya,traditional sila...
when we got home that afternoon,am so tired and my legsare aching i heard one of my lola talking to one of my aunt, then it hit me...ang selfish ko pala...i found out na t'was my late great grandma's request to follow the traditional way of funeral...kasi daw hindi na nya alam kung pano pa nya matitipon ulit ang mga anak at apo nya,sabi nya...siguro when she die,makukumpleto kami kahit papano kaya pinagsama sama nya kami ng matagal tagal by making us walk that far...sana lang nakita pa nya kami,coz when i saw it on picture,i had goosebumps all over me...hundreds of people (all relatives) dressed in white,walking behind the funeral car,all for my lola...then i thought...sana nakita pa ni lola,kasi parang huli ang lahat...

sorry seems to be the hardest word

i never thought that i'll find this song interesting...hehehe
well first true sya...of all the words/phrases/sentences...this seems to be the hardest to say,kasi when you say these words, thats means you admit that you're wrong...hay..si pride talaga
i actually have nothing with sense to say...am just bored and tired...last night i was trying to read my past notes and this book,but after first paragraph...i wanna throw up na...hahaha
i guess am gonna rest for a while...but my body misses the rush (ngeks,ang gulo noh)
miss ko na yung hot loops ng mini stop...yung tuna sandwich ni ate edna,extra joss every morning,salt and vinegar,mr chips,siopao and C2...hehehe

"blessing in disguise"

Three months has passed, I finished my review but sad to say I didn’t made it to the boards. I guess there’s a reason behind that, and I keep telling myself that something better is in store for me.
Well, I can say that now. But ask me a week ago… you’ll never get a decent conversation from me. I detached myself from the world. No cellphones, no TV, no radio… I locked myself in my room agonizing over the result and over my mumps (san ka pa diba?) I was too depressed, broken and sad(am not sure which hurt most, the failure or the mumps). I kept pointing my fingers and finding people whom I can blame for my failure. What I didn’t realize is the blessing behind the failure, I guess I now understand the word “blessing in disguise”
Of course the pain is still there, after all that I’ve been through during the review, it will always be there, I still cry at times, but not as often anymore.
As I reflect on my past three months, I realized the blessing. The blessing of knowing these people, these crazy people who have the same goal as mine 3 months ago. I remember how hard it was for me to connect to them at first, I barely knew anyone. It took me a month before I finally found someone who became my instant companion; these are the people of RTR who “adopted” me. Hehehe

I’ll miss them, the Davao and Cebu people na di mo na maawat pagnakahawak ng mic ng videoke, Benj and Ching, promise me you’ll get me as your manager ha…
Cielo, Nel and Chat… I’ll miss your apartment with all those review materials as wallpaper…

the house!!! my housemates… our own version of wallpapers. The dogs and our late night kabaliwan during those sleepless nights.

our first and last batch gimmick at anthology by the bay. Rock on boyz of Iloilo Docs(warning...wala pa sa 1/8 ng buong batch namin yan...di na kasi kami magfit in sa camera kaya others gave in)

my two favorite IQ lecturers… and according to my batchmates are their favorite too …mum Roan and sir John (both in white top). I will always remember your danz moves mum Roan(ice, ice buko…ding ding lang ang pagitan)…and sir John, I will remember you for your very unlikely way of teaching TBI… (wala…wala…wala) hehehehe

obviously, we share the same addiction with pictures…hehehehe

of course, how can I forget our beloved advisers (where can you find a class with two advisers tapos nagrereklamo pa)… mum maudee (pretty in pink) if you can only read this, we know we’ve been rude to you, I hope you can forgive us… its just our way of showing we love you…carinyong brutal ba!!!
And sir cads (only thorn among the roses)… our beloved daddy cads… R-E-S-P-E-C-T… got that!!!

last but not the least… what made this three month review more memorable for me is because this is where I found me long lost SENIOR… hehehehe!!! Yes friends, am just a replica, a clone, duplicate and a Junior…hehehehe

hay life… now that’s blessing…i may not be able to share every detail of that amazing three months, coz words aren't enough of how thankful i am...
I may not have gotten what I wanted but God made me realize, I got more than what I asked for. I found friends, I met true people. I learned and experience life. The PT life (and i remember how i hate being PT). Now that made me believe that God is preparing something better for me in the future. He’s just asking me to wait.