the one with the next

i got a text from my mom earlier telling me about my bestfriend joanne,she applied for flight attedant daw in Kuwait and now tapos na nya training and she's ready for her first flight...in London!!!
i kow i should be happy for her,coz she's my bestfriend,and i am...well part of me is happy bu majority of me is jealous.ewan ba!
sama ko no?!i dunno why i feel this way,pero at some point talaga,i feel jealous.buti pa sya.
para kasing walang kwenta eh,i feel so useless.minsan pag niloloko ako ng tatay ko,sinasabi nya na PT daw ako (pasaway sa tatay),i feel bad.kahit alam kong he's kidding,may tama pa rin eh.
bat ba kasi sa age kong ito eh parang wala akong pinagkatandaan...
bat ba hindi ako makuntento sa work ko...
bat laging may kulang...
bat wala akong matinong trabaho...
bat hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko bukas...
buti pa nung studyante ako,alam ko ang gagawin ko.,magaral lang ako.pero after i graduate,di ko na alam.kuha ba ako work?anong work?related ba or hindi.
mag-shift ba ako ng career?should i pursue PT?ewan...am so depressed
i dont know what's next

what the heck

ok,i dont know what's up with the world,but am sure there's one hack of a different world out here.
we went to san malo last Friday,and out of boredom i decided sit and "people watch" the passerby,i was waiting for my cousin's wife din kasi coz she's buying somethin.anyway,so i was sitting on a bench on this huge street mall.syempre maraming tao so quiet lang ako sa pwesto ko.a Portugese girl sat beside me,i noticed her kasi pretty sya and tall,bout my size.pero weird, i caught her sa gilid ng eyes ko several times she's looking at me,i thought am blocking her view or something so i lean backwards,nakahalata yata so medyo umayos sya.but when i looked again,nakatingin nanaman sya.i smiled,just to be polite.well,bad idea.she smiled back and gave me an opener.huh?!she asked me if am a tourist,coz she is daw.we talked for a few minutes,ok naman sya kaso naloka ako,bigla ba namang sinabi...
"you know you look so pretty i could just kiss you!"
whoa!i thought she's just kidding so i laughed,then sabi nya na she's not kidding.i wanted to look for cameras around me coz it might be a practical joke.pero wala!so i just told her na am "straight" and amreally not her type.
whaa.i thouht aalis na sya,but i was wrong.she even offered to buy me a coffe and talk more,baka daw i might change my mind.i politely declined and stood up,but she followed.she apoloized coz she thought na masyado daw syang naging straight forward sa pag-approach,pero ganun daw sya.i declined again and smiled.and ang pinaka shocking sa lahat,she lean over me,hinawakan yung left hand ko then kissed me on the cheeks.
oh my gosh!nasa bubble gum type of movie ba ako.
now that would have been nice,only...and only if SHE was a HE!!!
para akong binuhusan ng mabangong malamig na tubig (well i have to say mabango coz she smell so nice)...man!!what's up with the world
ad the funny thing di yan ang first time na nakaencounter ako ng ganyan.and i prefer not to recall the other.hahaha
pero na-shock talaga ako.eh ang ganda ganda naman nung girl.ah ewan

my playlist

after my cellphone analyzation,heto naman ang aking mp3 chuva...
iba na talagang napagiisip ng mga walang magawa eh...well at least nae-exercise ang aking mga neurons...
i just downloaded some songs,at syempre nakasalpak lagi sa tenga ko ang earphones.hehehe (oh man,get a life!)
here's some of my list...
* remedy (seether) - nod your head like this..hehehe!this rocks man!
* stupid girl (pink) - i remember when a friend saw the video of this song,she cant stop laughing,well who wouldn't
* broken (seether)
* otherwise (imago)
* pretty me (imago)
* akap (imago)
* blind (lifehouse)
* blurry (puddle of mud) - i read somewhere na this song was originally written by the vocalist's 9 year old son.well, galing ng anak nya coz i think the lyrics is wonderful
* unwritten (natasha edingfield) - "no one else can see it for you,only you can let it in
no one else can speak the words of your lips."
* drops of jupiter (train)
* bad day (daniel powder) - ehem,mr barco,hindi po ben harper ang kumanta
* now this may come weird,but ive been listening to this band,itchyworm.i know they look weird,but you can listen naman and not look at them eh.hehehe
pero may sense sila in fairness...promise,pakinggan nyo..especially yung..soap o pera, theme from noontime show and contestant number 1
* everything (lifehouse) - eto naman ang walang biro,naiyak ako nung narinig ko.it sounds familiar i think kinanta na sya ng UNITED pero am not sure...here's the lyrics
EVERYTHING
find me here
and speak to me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
you are the light
that's leading me
to the place
where I find peace again
you are the strength
that keeps me walking
you are the hope
that keeps me trusting
you are the life
to my soulyou are my purpose
you're everything
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this yeah
you calm the storms
and you give me rest
you hold me in your hands
you won't let me fall
you still my heart
and you take my breath away
would you take me in
take me deeper now
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this

cause you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
you're all I want
you're all I need
you're everything
everything
and how can I
stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me
how could it be
any better than this
**ok fine.i need to get a life.hehehe

weird weird weird

hehehe
thats all i can say right now
ive been doing a lot of thinking,then i realize...its boring..hehehe
i was staring at my phone few days back,waiting for it to turn into one big peanut butter sandwich (kidding!!) when i started browsing at my old messages...then i realize,i have lots of weord texts from friends,colleagues,family...etc
here's some...
"uy! namiss ko na talaga mga kalokohan mo ;-)" - maila
after sending her a morning qoute,thats her reply...weird noh
"uy mama mich tnx a lot" - aspeng
i just find it weird coz i gave him a gift na i thought di nya magugustuhan,i just gave it to him for fun and it turned out nagustuhan nya.or he's just being polite.hahaha
"its not the pale moon that excites me..." -guess who
hahaha...i suppose am not the only one na nakareceive ng text na yan.hahaha
its from tj by the way and i know you know the rest of the message
"ate dyan ba si mich?" - krisca (cousin ko)
i have a cousin kasi named michelle din,just find it weird.hinahanap si michelle kay michelle.weird noh.hehehe
"oist...uumm...oo...hah?ah...sige" - mum roan
walang biro to...yan talaga ang text nya.well,she's actually trying to cheer me up after the boards
"san na ate ko?" -swit
yeah,thats my bebeh swit.ang taong mas madalas pang humanap sakin kesa sa nanay ko.hehehe
labs ko yan
**ayan wala na ako maisip.hehehe