seriously?!

I had a harsh falling out with my supervisor last Thursday. I was dreading this Monday because I know that at some point, I have to face her and talk to her about what happened the prior week. I was cruel to her I know. I said things that I shouldn’t have said. Hurtful things. Things I didn’t imagine myself saying to another person. I don’t know what got into me. I got scared of my own self. But when we talked during the beginning of the shift I was surprised with my attitude. I prepared a speech for her to justify my behavior. But when I started talking, its all gone, instead of justifying my behavior, I took full responsibility of what happened. I told her Im very much aware that I hurt her and I wish I can take it back but I can’t. I even said if I can do things all over again I know that I’ll say the exact same things, because that’s how I felt that time. After 30 minutes of talking, we wrapped it up. Its all water under the bridge. I know that’s gonna go in my file although she didn’t write me for that. But it’ll affect my status. Our relationship, nah… we’re not that close anyway. Hahaha! Although I feel for her. She doesn’t deserve it (well maybe she deserve some of it. :P) but still. I know she wouldn’t expect it from me. I’m sorry Fides. I know I disappoint you today. But I really am sorry.

*** on the lighter side. After 3 purchase of Grey’s Anatomy DVD, finally I was able to finish Season 4. its not as exciting as the previous season, I miss Burke. I miss Addison. feel like they rushed into the finale (the Writer’s Strike really affect them. Boo-hoo!) although I love Dr. Erica Hahn. But what shocked me the most is Callie and Hahn. Seriously? What do you guys think?

Are you kidding me?

You know how it feels during lazy Sunday afternoon where you keep clicking the remote trying to find a decent show on television. I’m usually glued on PBA during those hours but I don’t like the way Sta. Lucia was loosing to Talk n Text. Hehehe! Anyway, so I watched QTV’s “Ang Pinaka”. For the week’s countdown they featured the 10 Most Successful Pinoy Entrepreneurs. I don’t watch the business channel and I usually get the lifestyle, entertainment and sports section on a newspaper. The business section would be the last thing I’d read. Yeah, I’d rather read the obituaries. Hahaha! I caught just half of the list.
5. John Gokongwei Jr
4. Tony Tan Caktiong
3. Manny Villar
2. Andrew L Tan
1. Henry Sy
Wait a minute! Am I still watching local channel? I’m on QTV right? And the list was supposed to be 10 Most Successful PINOY Entrepreneurs. Eh nasan and Pinoy? Oh im sorry, there you go… number 3. Sen. Manny Villar. And? That’s it? Like I said, I don’t watch the business channel (if there’s such thing) but I know that there are hundreds of Pinoy Entrepreneurs who would have made it to the list. Its not as if may prestige or something to be on the list of a local TV show. But its not right.

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i was browsing through my phone pictures when i saw these pictures.i took when during my endless search for a dress to wear during the oath taking ceremony. it took me 5 malls to finally find the perfect dress. i had a dress in mind, i want a black,below knee length,3/4 dress,that specific.i went to landmark in trinoma,went to all the shops in trinoma,the block,sm makati,greenbelt,i was so desperate i even went to rustans (muntik akong himatayin.hahaha).
i saw one that i like in Tango,but the saleslady is not very friendly. when i asked for the size of the dress,she gave me a "you can't afford that" look and said thats our last piece then walked away.i got pissed so i went to her carrying the dress and told her, "i'm not asking for your stock, im asking for the size".she let out a long sigh and said "large yan and thats our last piece". i wanted to strangle her with the hanger and smash her head on the counter but i cant so i just gave her the scariest look i can come up with.the lady in the counter saw that im a bit pissed so she offered assistance.too bad the dress didn't fit me,i was so ready to buy it,then i'll walk in front of that saleslady and show off the bag in front of her face (ala julia roberts in Pretty Woman..."hi,you remember me?big mistake!huge!" instead i politely walked away and thanked the kind saleslady.i want to think i'm the bigger person in that picture but part of me wants to go back and give that lady a piece of what she deserves. *sigh*
anyway,my feet is killing me already,i decided to go home.i was looking for the MRT exit when i saw Cinderella,i decided to have one last look.tadan!! they have a lot of dress (long and not so long). hehehe! i was down to these 2 dress.actually they look the same, i settled for the former.

dress number 1

dress number 2

first time I heard of this movie was nearly 5 years ago. We we’re at nanie’s house and ate lulu borrowed the DVD from kuya Melvin. He said, “Lu, maganda yan, nakakaiyak”. I’m not a big fan of anime so I did not even look at the DVD. But for some reason the title got stocked in my head.
When I came to Convergys, Chari, my wavemate, showed me her DVD collection. I saw Grave of the Fireflies there and I asked her “ is this good?”. Her big eyes became even bigger “sobrang ganda nyan, you have to watch that”. So I borrowed the DVD, but I never got the chance to watch it. It got buried under my unwatched DVDs (including pinkie’s Derailed. Hahaha!)
Last month, my roommates and I went to the DVD (dee-bee-dee) haven aka Circle C. he looked for a bunch of Anime and bought some, one of the 20 something in 1 DVD he bought has the movie Grave of the Fireflies. He watched it and told me the same thing “watch mo sya, nakaka-iyak”. Finally , I was bored to death last Saturday and I was rummaging through my DVDs when I remember it. I put it on the player and looked for the title. To my surprise, its dubbed in English. I don’t know if watching it was a best idea on a weary and rainy Saturday but I was reaching for tissue for most part of the movie (from beginning to end to be exact). And mind you, I don’t easily cry over movies, I cry over the weird ones. I didn’t cry when I watched The Passion of the Christ but I cried at Armageddon. I didn’t cry on The Notebook, but I cried at Monster’s Inc. told you I’m weird. Hahaha! But for Grave of the Fireflies! My oh my, tears-tear-tears! And not just tears, there were sobs too. Michelle! For crying out loud! It’s a cartoon! Hahaha! Man I need a life. But seriously. The movie is really sad. I did not even finish it in one sitting, I had to stop in the middle of the movie coz I cant take it anymore. But after a few Friends episode I decided to continue. But I still bawled like a baby. Huhuhu!
I found out that there’s a book of the same title. I want the book, although I know I’ll have a hard time looking for one coz it was originally released 1988. Anyone knows where can I buy old Japanese, as in really old ones.