FEAR

1.
i saw Ellen Degeneres' interview w/ Grey's anatomy star Sandra Oh.this is a very interesting interview for me because i love Grey's anatomy and its getting really high buzz fr american audience.
Ellen:where are you fr?
Sandra:my parents are fr Korea but i grew up in CA
Ellen:how did they react on you being an actor?
Sandra:they actuallly are not very keen about it now but before they're not very cool about it.because im the only one in my family who doesn't have a master's degree.
Ellen:is that a bad thing?
Sandra:well no,but fr my culture...California culture,education is really a big deal.
Ellen:but you are Korean,right?
Sandra:yeah,but i grew up in California.
Ellen:but you are still Korean,just by looking at you i can tell (not in an insulting manner)
Sandra:oh yeah,well...
***what the heck!ok,i love sandra oh before this interview happens.why does she keeps denying that she is Korean?well,technically she didnt deny,but its hard for her to admit as well that she's Korean.is she afraid that people may start disliking her for being Korean?
2.
are you afraid of the dark?typhoon...no electricity...no water (well,we have but only droplets of water)...no signal...but w/ work.this is a very humbling experience if i may say.taught me how to appreciate life,well,life and technology.
i was so lazy and i dont want to get up and buy candle during the afternoon so i just slept the whole afternoon.then came the evening,it was so scary and the rain and the wind is still there.theres no more candle available in the store and i dont even have a flashlight.so i have no other choice except to walk in the dark and bathe in the dark.
so while taking a bath,i was so scared coz its really pitch black.till dumating ang kinatatakutan ko,nagkamali ako ng hakbang...ayun!sprain ako...nadulas at lumagapak sa sahig.at masaket!now w/ a sprained ankle,i realized na sobrang hirap pala talagang walang kasama sa bahay,nagkasakit ako na walang nakakaalam,nadulas sa banyo ng walang nakatulong,nahilo ng walang sumaklolo sa kusina at higit sa lahat tumawang magisa habang nanonood ng tv.hay!
3.
Metropolitan Hospital,i visited a friend who had a kidney stone operation a few days ago.she showed me the stones that they got fr her system,grabe!parang papaya na maraming seeds.hahaha!ok thats disgusting and scary at the same time,it made me think,kasi baka sooner or later maganun na rin ako sa lifestyle ko.
4.
my dad called me few days ago,nangungumusta at the same time na ngungunsensya.hehehe!well,lagi naman eh.
dad:oh,kumusta sa bahay?
me:ok naman po.kakatapos lang finals nila micah
dad:si mama mo?
me:ok din,bat di mo kasi tawagan para malaman mo.
dad:di na lang,magaaway lang nanaman kami nun
musta work mo?
me:ok lang po,lagi akong pang-gabi pero maayos naman.
dad:masaya kanaba dyan?ayaw mo nabang magreview at magPT uli?
me:(long pause)...well,di ko pa po alam.
dad:nagpapaalala lang naman ako,sana alam mo pa rin mga priority mo.
***naiinis ako sa sarili ko,naiinis ako na nagpapadala nanaman ako sa gusto ng magulang ko para sa buhay ko,naiinis ako dahil i dont have enough courage to tell my dad na im starting to enjoy my work.i know di sya isa sa mga work na pwede mong sabihing tatagalan mo for several years,i mean who am i kidding.pero so far im enjoying myself.
bedsides,looking through my file i dont have any job na tumagal ako ng more than 5 mos.i want something in my resume that says i stayed in an industry for a reasonable time.not only stayed but did well also.
natatakot lang siguro akong sabihin sa tatay ko na masaya ako so far kasi alam ko na pag sinabi ko yun eh hindi sya matutuwa.pagsinabi ko yun eh masisira nanaman ang mga plans nya for me.mga plans na sya ang nagisip ang didnt even asked me if gusto ko ba yung mga plano nyang yun.
5.
my dad has been complaining bout his prostate for the past months.the last time he was here in the Philippines we actually had it checked and according to the doctor he's having some significant enlargement on the prostate.they gave him meds but since he's also diabetic (type I) theres lots of contradictions and restrictions as to what he can take and what he's not allowed.i dont know if its psychosomatic as well pero nagiging madalas talaga yung pagcomplain nya eh.im worried for him and knowing my dad,im sure he's more worried that i am.
6.
???:do you know where is this place?
me:yeah,thats near greenbelt 2.why?
???:may sasamahan lang ako
me:whe?!i know that place,puro agency dyan eh.dont tell me you're applying abroad?
???:hahaha!well im still praying for it.help me pray that may God's will be done
me:ganun!di parang pinamigay na rin kita.sad ako :-(
???:joke lang,para kang sira.may sasamahan lang ako noh.
me:di nga?
???:oo nga,although niyaya nya talaga ako na magpass din ng resume pero tinamad ako na magayus ng papers.hahah!
may sinamahan lang talaga ako noh.wala akong balak pa na umalis.
***nalungkot talaga ako nung nagask sya fir directions kasi alam ko kung san patungo yun eh.nalungkot siguro ako sa fact na may friend nanaman akong aalis.at ayoko,ive shed enough tears already.ang drama noh!pero promise talaga.ayoko na nang iwanan.first t'was Bam,when her dad decided to got to Hongkong for ministry.then Joanne.then jocelyn.now sya naman.ayoko na!takot akong maiwan.

happy birthday

lately ko lang narealize na wala pala akong birthday blog...
honetly theres nothing to write naman kasi.t'was a boring day for me and i spent it alone,nagmukmok lang ako sa bahay while my mom attend to someone at the hospital.it hurts to think na mas pinili pa ng nanay ko na magbantay sa may sakit sa hospital kesa magstay sa bahay tio celebrate my birthday.maybe im selfish,pero di ko talaga maisip kung bakit.
then till late in the afternoon i cant contain myself anymore,naiyak na lang ako sa room ko.then i left home.kahit 11pm pa pasok ko sa work i told mymo na i need to leave early and on my way to manila di talaga ako mahinto kakaiyak.naiinis ako.
i feel so depressed.at and pinaka looser sa lahat,i bought a cake for myself.imagine,that simple thing na hindi naisip ng nanay ko na gawin for me.
till now im not talking to my mom.i know mali yun,pero parang di na yata talaga tama yung ginawa nya eh.all im asking is for her to say she's sorry.
yan din kasi yung kinasasama ng loob ng dad ko sa kanya eh.di sya marunong magsorry,instead mangangatwiran pa sya at magsusumbat sayo.then sasabihin nya pinagmamalakihan na daw sya.my gosh!
see...told you nothing very interesting happened during my birthday.

Rockstar:Supernova

the season finale!
i have to commend the producers of the show.the Final Four contestants are amazing!their marketing strategy is amazing!they picked four contestants that came from four different countries for a band that's about to tour the world(Dillana-US,Lukas-Canada,Magni-Iceland and Toby-Australia).they already established their fans right away.hands down!
i cant believe they chose Lukas over Dilanna!
i really still cant believe.im gonna take this point by point...
consistency-when you'll base your decision on the consistency of the performance of the rockers,you'll agree with me when i say that Dilanna never had a bad week.even during the time that she's struggling with the bad comments she made to the press agaist a fellow rocker.she came back in the most dramatic fashion.Lukas had 2-3 bad weeks,remember the time he forgot the lyrics?how bout the time when i so agree with Jason Newstand that he constrict his throat everytime he sings.
vocals-Dilanna has this very unique voice.she hits every low note so strong and rocks the highest to the top of her lungs.she speaks w/ an accent but she sings w/ enchantment.Lukas on the other hand,man!i cant understand a word everytime he sings.he's mumbling his words.and everytime he speaks,he syllabicates everything.
attitude-this i guess is the part where Lukas will earn more points than Dilanna.Lukas is all attitude!i doubt his range and i dont like his style of singing.he's really all attitude.coming to the show as the dirty hard ass rocker (who dresses like Tommy and wears more make up than Brooke).compare to Magni who looks a bald boy boy band member (oopps,sorry but he really does too clean and nice to be a rocker) or Toby who will pass as one of the guys the Sex and the City stars dated (hahaha!)
votes-"we will go with the one who the audience picked,we chose the one who got the highest vote last night"-Tommy Lee...excuse me!highest vote?ok first of all,Dillana is the only one who never stood up because she never was in the bottom three?there are only 4 contestants left,when Brooke called the three guys and said that they were in the bottom three at "some" point during the voting it means Dillana was never at the bottom three...and if you're not in the bottom three,there's only ony number left for you to take...number 1...so Tommy,Lukas is not the one the fans chose!because Lukas did not get the highest number of votes!Lukas is part of the bottom three!

***but like what Toby introduced to the world..EVS!all is said and done.they chose Lukas,and as consolation,they asked Dilana to tour w/ Supernova and Panic Channel.also Gilbey Clark promised Dilana that he'll extend a hand in producing an album for Dilana and Dave promised to play as well.
i just hope Dilana will release an album and it'll soar to the charts and pass the sales of Supernova to let them know that they MADE THE WRONG DECISION.
i hope she sells more album and more sold out concerts/gigs than any other contestants this season.
i hope the Supernova's ego will hit them hard where it hurts the most because they cant accept a simple fact that A WOMAN CAN FRONT A ROCK BAND!

***i know i'll be cricified for all my comments and harsh words,but what the heck.at least im beating at my own territory.

tamad

*tinatamad akong magsulat ng maayos eh
-t'was my mom's birthday last Tuesday,good thing i was there so naghanda naman daw sya kahit papano.
-my lil sis' birthday today pero baka sa saturday na lang daw i-celebrate
-i had a weird sched this week.Monday is holiday but i only get to work on Tuesday till Thursday.meaning i only have 3 working days this week.weird noh
-i haven't seen The Devil Wears Prada.kasi naman yung mga kasama ko dapat na manonood eh ininjan ako.ampf!
-may sleeping problem ako lately.i go out of work at 8:30,i usually sleep around 12noon (which is late na) then every 2 hours nagigising ako then nahihirapan akong bumalik sa tulog.
-bat ba lahat ng mga friends ko everytime may lovelife concerns sila sakin nila agad sinasabi.either they're in-love,about to fall in love or fall out of love and lover's quarell sila.lahat sinasabi nila sakin.why?why!
kamukha ko ba si Joe d' mangoe?do i sound like Dr. Love from RX?at higit sa lahat,mukha ba akong may kakayahang magbigay ng matinong payo sa inyo pagdating sa mga bagay ng yan?
hay!gtusto ko na umuwi,inaantok ako

news!
i just heard (fr a very reliable source) that one of my bestfriend fr way way back is pregnant.my golly!she'll be the third person fr my church peers to be reported pregnant.lahat na sila ay nagkakabuntisan.kelan kaya ako?hahaha!wish ko lang.baka magbigti tatay ko pag nagkataon.pro diba dapat matuwa sila pag nabuntis ako.kasi dadami lahi namin,kesa naman sa di ako mabuntis,kasi baka baog ako.hahaha!
eviction!
alis na housemate ko.wala na akong housemate.im computing the expenses pag alis nya at di ko talaga alam kung pano ako magtitipid pag nagkataon.the landlady gave me a leeway.she told me i can pay her the half of the rent,as long as i take care of the bills by myself.hay!eh ang electric bill namin for the past mos ay around 1400-1500.
teambuilding!
im gonna have my first ever team building experience today.im not looking forward to that much,but whatever!
disband!
well my favorite acoutic artist has disbanded.too bad,i think they're one of the best (if not the best).i'll surely miss them.it hurts me more kasi may special place na sa heart ko yung lead vocals nila.ive admired that girl since FOJ days.name it.i
have a tape (take note,tape pa ito) of every single album they released.actually i even bought albums kahit isang song lang ang kanila dun (i.e. metropop 1995,christmas album,compilation of tagalized song 2become1) and...ok this is a
confession...i had their names cross stiched then i used it as a cover of my diary.hahaha!so which is the confession,the cross stich,the cover or the fact that i owned a diary.hahaha!pero seriously,sa kanila lang ako naobsess ng ganito.thats why i was so glad when i heard na Teri made a comeback in the acoustic scene.sayang nga lang at 4 years.but it has been 4 good years,2 albums,jam packed bar gigs and several music videos.i can say na they did good.and knowing what she chose over that career in music scene,i can definitely say na its worth it.

some of the people i really miss (yvette,mommy grace and lalah)

the return of FOJ.hahaha

nice cake fr Sab and smile