words of wisdom from Edmund Sultan

i was expecting a long afternoon of lecture today so i prepared my self,i read a lot last night, i had early lunch and i bought tons of bottled water and candies...but to my disappointment,no lecture (technically there is a lecture,but not formal lecture)...we had the Owner of the review center as our lecturer, Mr. Edmund Sultan...it was more of an orientation rather than lecture...and i was surprised, turned out to be the best lecture i've ever heard in my life...
he talked about the IQ program for the whole three motnhs period, policies of the review center, talked about his life...and most of all, life during the boads and how we're going to pass it...
his first question struck me the most...
"WHY ARE YOU HERE?"
at first i thought t'was just a retorical question that need not to be answered, till he points at me and asked me ...
"KAW MA'AM, WHY ARE YOU HERE?"
i was shocked a bit, but i told him..."to pass the boards sir!"
he said..."NOT BAD!"
after calling a few other people, he then realized that all of us inthat room have one common goal...
TO PASS THE BOARDS AND GET OUR LISCENCE
then he said...
"DON'T YOU THINK IT'S BETTER IF YOUR GOAL IS NOT JUST TO PASS THE BOARDS?BUT TO TOP THE BOARDS?"
defening silence was felt in the room...it struck me...i know i want to pass the boards (of course)...but why?seriously...am just doing this for my parents,that maybe when i finally pass the boards they would get off my business na...
i just learned t'was wrong, coz if i'll continue with that thinking, then i will fail...
i have to do this for my self...COZ I OWE IT TO MYSELF
i then learned the most amazing definition of the word descipline...

DISCIPLINE - is doing something that you dont want to do to achieve something that you want to do
confussed?read again...word per word...then think coz that i was confussed too when i saw that definition...
he's right...my goal should ot only be to pass the boards, but to top it...coz if i fail on one task, then i will land on number 2...but if my goal is just to pass...if i fail on one task, i will land on failed immediately...

i was so inspired after his lecture that amm scared...maybe this inspiration is just an emotion that will eventually fleet
i dont want that to happen...i want to create a hunger within me that will yearn so bad for a PTRP title
that can be my motivation for the whole three months...thats hunger will give me "drive" so endure those sleepless nights and to yearn for more
i've never been thise motivated before and i never expected myself to be this excited about this review
i need to have the purpose...coz so far...am just Michelle

manic monday

whew!!!what a Monday it has been for me...
i went to Manila to start my review na,on my way i was texting lots of people to update my pending business (naks,parang totoo)...i arrived a bit late for my class,good thing its the first day so the lecturer arrived later than me...
i arrived at my class with 2 big bags so people kinda stared at me and worse of all,when i entered the classroom,the whole class stared at me and kept quiet,maybe they thought am the teacher.huh?are you kidding me?anyways,so i opted to seat at the back,near the door...bad idea,the projector was situated at the wall next to the door,so obviously i have to flex my head till shoulder level just to take a glimpse of whats on the lecture (rule number 1:always look for the projector,to know where to sit)
rule number 2: never sit near the door...coz everybody will pass by you and one point or another you're gonna get bumped,stepped on or worse had you're hand caught on the door hinge...hay!!!
it was a relief that we wont be having any lecture for today...or not...coz there's Pre-Moc Exam instead...huhuhu!!!i think i'll take the former if i have an option...
i realized how much work i have to do after i took the exam...KAMOTE!!!thats the perfect word to describe my exam...man!!!300 items, 50 pages...where do i begin...we took home the questionaires,and on my way home,i was reading it...naiyak ako sa sobrang depress ko sa exam...i dont need to get the result of the exam coz i know i failed...may sound mababaw,but i really cried till i get home...i slept for about 30 minutes (i really cant sleep) then when i woke up at 11pm,i read my ana book then i think i had my momentum...i really read the whole chapters,i didn't stop till i realized t'was 4am already...
of course i need to sleep na,but i cant...maybe i got so depress kaya my mind wont let me sleep...i just hope i'll do good the next time

rainmaker and legal docs

i finally finished my John Grisham, which took me three months to finish...hehehe!!!t'was nice,but my favorite is still "the street lawyer"...
last monday,i asked my mom if she could accompany me to the city hall and NBI coz i need to settle all my other legal documents...i mean,am already 22 but i still have any valid ID aside from my school ID which by the way expired about a year ago...so we went to city hall,i claimed my "sedula" then we went to the NBI,had some problems theres coz, well what else would be my problem, my name...apparently there are two hundred thousand something people who have the same name as i do...man,i blame that on my mom...then late in the afternoon we went to out Barangay Hall coz i need my Barangay Certificate...the guy there even asked me "bat ang tanda mo na ngayon ka lang kumuha nito?"...huh?the nerve...i told him, "why do you care?"
i think he got offended he never spoke a word again...hahahah
well,am just getting ready to go back to manila again...am not really making any special preparations...but the fact that am going back to review classes kills me...need to burry my self on thousand books and hand outs again...but it'll just be three months...and after that,i promise myself,by hook or by crook...i will pass that freakin boards and get a liscence...easier said than done huh...

my fave day of the week

i've always loved wednesday my entire life. not that it's an indication of an upcoming weekend for me.but all of my favorite TV shows are shown on a wednesday.before they used to have FRIENDS and THAT 70's SHOW on abc on a Wednesday. AXN used to show RELIC HUNTER on a Wednesday too. and now,my schedule is filled once more on a Wednesday.
first stop...8pm AXN "the amazing race"

this season is really different coz aside from i've seen this season from the very beginning but most of all.i havemy own favorite on the race.Rob and Amber to be exact.ive seen this couple from Survivor,first fromdifferent season,then the all star.amber might have walked away $900,000 richer than Rob.but Rob felt richer coz he proposed to amber during the reunion,on national television.
anyways,back to amazing race.i know lots of people hate them for being "unfair"...but i dont think so.i think they just hate them coz they play smarter than them.i really hope they win another million dollar

next one...9m AXN "CSI"...the reason why i enjoy watching this TV show is that i suck in anatomy.and watching these crime lab people makes me learn more about anatomy.so its entertainment and studying at the same time.sometimes,watching this show with some of my friends makes me feel genius.hehehe!coz sometimes they use terms are not translated into lay man terms so whenever those weird words pop out.they would ask,and of course most of the time am kinda familiar to em.sometimes i try to explain it to them.hehehe...also,i love catherine willows

last but not the least...10pm ABC "american idol" the latest craze.of course join ako.

from the wreckage Of your silent reverie

thats been my LSS since i woke up this morning.and man my head feels so heavy and ive been sneezing a lot and my throat really hurts from consistent coughing.ive been trying self medications,calamasi juice,honey with salt (yuck) and even fresh calamnsi on my throat,so far nothing happened.man,this is such a day,ive been really low coz of what's happening to my family and even my body wont cooperate to my situation.i hate this!
so while sound tripping this morning and coughing non stop i was thinking of my recent emotional rollercoaster.i cant talk to anyone about this,am not sure who to talk to in the first place.i want t o talk to someone who can give me the right advice.so i decided to pour my emotions on my pictures.collected these from different gatherings and galas that ive been through.wala lang actually,dont know what i'll call this.but so far this best describes me.dark and gloomy

mah family and friends

went to manila yesterday to arrange my enrollment for the summer review,went with my mom coz she needs to fix something with my sister's school.we arrived at adamson around 10am and since my sis is not yet there,we decided to look around muna and see if we can find any dorm.we found one near the campus and my mom loved it.i think she'll make us both stay there,the place is ok but looks scarry to me.
anyways,i left them at adamson coz i need to go to the review center,after that i went to glaxo makati to submit my quit and claim letter.i need to go to citibank,and since the only citibank i know was the one near ate lulu's work i visit her na rin,since she' s mad pa rin naman coz of last weekend's gala.i arrived there and brought her some sweets,she looked surprised.but she had an idea na raw t'was me coz the guard told her na.but still she's touched naman daw.naks!!!
next stop,i went to abs to visit naman lalah.i decided to play a lil trick with her.i told her my friend is going to abs and i had my friend deliver something to for her.the plan was perfectly ok until i reached abs,i cant find any bakeshop or store near it.inside abs compund i saw a ministop,i was about to buy her chocolates sana but their only chocolate is kitkat (yikes!) good thing i saw becky's (best brownies in the world) so i bought her cakes and brownies.i was trying to call her on my way up to the 3rd floor,was planning to have her pick up my friend at the elevator but she'll be surprise coz it'll be me,but whola!she's not picking up,so i have no other choice but to go to her office.outside her office,i keep on asking people for mylah but nobody seems to know where she is.after five minutes i looked to my right and i saw her,she's raising her hand to fix her hair,just enough time for me to see her reaction.hehehehe!she looked so suprise (i hope she was really surprised)..hehehe!we chat a bit,but i need to go na coz my mom and sis are waiting for me.we promised to keep in touch naman,as we always do.but i really did miss her.
i went to monumento na to meet mama and maan,while inside the mall my dad called me phone,when i answered he sounded so mad and he asked me to give the phone to my sister.while i was watching my sis talk to my dad,i saw her cry na.i know she's in trouble with him.but this time its for real,she's crying so hard that people are staring at us.later she gave me the phone and stayed quiet the whole time.
it kinda hit me to see her cry like that,coz you can never see my sister cry talaga.everybody thinks am the strong one but really,my sis is stronger than me.kaya seeing her cry like that in public,i knew na my dad is really mad at her.it left me speechless na rin,i wasnt able to sleep last night coz of that.and what sucks more,i dont have anyone to talk to about this.everybody's just too busy with their lives.this sucks

the search for Robin Padilla and everything in between

friday, i woke up very excited. tee-jae is coming over, well she's coming for wrok here in zambales,but nevertheless am still excited to see her.kahit hindi kumpleto ok pa rin.during the morning di pa ko sure if she was able to contact renan, coz she's planning na isama si renan.but shen they called me around 9:30 i found out sumama rin pala sya,which made me more excited. they arrived here in Olongapo around 10am and we have to go straight to Mariveles, Bataan. i asked tee-jae "pano ba yung filed work mo?"...then renan replied while laughing.."hahanapin natin si Robin Padilla!"..then i found out,true pala.we have to look for stores with the new Pop Cola poster (the one with Robin Padilla)..hehehehe

umabot kami till mariveles,

but still we're halfway pa the target stores (tee-jae needs 30 stores)
we stopped by an ihaw-ihaw restaurant for lunch then we drove up to the mountains na to go back to work (well,tee-jae to go back to work.hehehe) we decided to drop by at the death march's plaza, para naman daw historic ang pagpunta namin.

we almost finished the 30 stores (there's 5 left pa) but tee-jae decided to continue the next day na.so we're driving back to Subic to check in na sa hotel. we freshen up when we arrived there then we went out for dinner and nightlife sana.we had some fast food take out then sa shop kami kumain while chatting with other KOers,they saw all our kalbo customers here.hehehe!nearly 11,we decided to check out the nightlife sa Sibil,but to their dismay wala masyadong tao.kasi as far as i know,saturday night talaga gimick days ng mga tao so balik na lang kami sa hotel and mag-room service na lang.t'was better.at least we get to chat and make "okray" all the stuffs weve been seeing sa TV.hehehe!the next day,itenerary namin eh to use the free zoobic safari tickets from the hotel.we have to chip in to the other one coz two lang yung free.renan and i are messing around the hotel room,kasi paalis na kami.hehehehe

after breakfast we checked out na sa hotel then punta na kami zoobic.t'was a nice adventure.kasi am really scared of the tigers,especially when they're attacking our jeep to get the chicken.i saw an old classmate,si roland tour guide na pala sya dun.i saw my cousin jackie also.ok yung zoobic,its my first time there and am definitely coming back,pag may giraffe na.hehehe


we took some pictures pa on our way down to the main gate.

we're laughing and teasing pa and wondering where we can have lunch during our stop sa intersection when ALAS!!somebody hit KUYA from behind.it took a while para may sink sa kin yung situation,nagulat na lang ako coz tee-jae went down the car.."what the fuck was that about?didn't you see the stoplight?"
for the first time,natakot ako for tee-jae coz the guy yung bumangga and you'll never know.i went down to calm her sana.but of course,poised pa rin ang lola mo.the next thing i knew,she's telling the guy.."i hope you're insured"..natawa ako kahit konti sa comment but really malaki ang damage sa guy.

we waited for the police then we went to the LTO office for the police report.we were so hungry na talaga,we had lunch around 4 na yata then they shopped for a few items at Duty Free.i went home na,brownout sa bahay so i decided na sumunod na lang sa mga tita ko who went swimming.i was so tired after that,nung natuyo na ako di na ko nagshower.i went stright to bed,hehehehe